Sanctification

No one told me when I when I decided to follow Christ how hard it would be. 

I’ve been an attempted follower now for 13 years, and it doesn’t seem to get any easier. 

So far in my walk, I’ve realized that I am unloving, uncompassionate, selfish, inconsiderate, 

judging, deceptive, and realizing how horrible my heart seems to be.

I find the process of sanctification very interesting. It's not a good sermon, It's not a really good book.

What it has seemed to be in my life is failure. It's the times when I really screw up. The times when I look back,

and say to myself "what was I thinking?". Those are the times when the real me comes out.

However, the greatest part about our Jesus is that is when I feel Him the most. In the midst of humility. He loves

to show up there. We see in Jesus greatest act of humility, His death on a cross for us, that we see Joy come out of that.

It is after these moments of forced humility or self-humility that true sanctification begins, I believe. I believe that is Christ's

goal in us. When we are willing to admit where we really are, that growth from Him can happen.

Is this how santification is supposed work though, through failure? Paul says to the Corinthian church: "But

this happened that we might not rely on ourselves but on God, who raises the dead. He has delivered us from

such a deadly peril, and he will deliver us." Of course he is talking about an actual physical situation, but it

applies to our spiritual life as well. If that means we have to go through some suffering or see the nastiness of our

heart, so be it. Isn't our ultimate goal to be like Jesus? Well, that's gonna take some serious failure in my life.

I mean, a lot...

Bring on the pain?

That's enough for now...